living | 26th jan 2022
the hush episode two talks bout living
How do you define living? What defines your living? I spoke with a friend recently about words and their definitions. An interviewer asked me to define poetry and it is crazy how different the definitions of some words are. When I ended last week’s newsletter with live, how did you take it? What was the first image in your mind? When I think of living I think of being away from everything. Which is an odd thing. I imagine mountain peaks and breezy woodlands, being present and free. I think of all the places I haven’t been to, the food I haven’t eaten but what if it is even less than all that? What if living is just experiencing life with the people you love. The more I think about it the more that definition makes sense. We are all concerned about half live and being lonely and putting down the next down payment for something we don’t need but is the want living? If we don’t live up to our wants are our lives unlived?
I have pondered on this a lot since last week. I think of my happiest times and there is always a constant. There is always me with people I call family, laughing, building a bubble around ourselves, and forgetting there is a world beyond us. I think we are fed so much bullshit in the modern-day. Whether it is social media adverts, scams that should be illegal, or some magazine feeding us insecurity. We are targeted and made to believe that we NEED this product or that product. That to be the best us we MUST buy their product. The moment self-love became a trend, it became harder to know exactly what self-love is because we are fed a million things. This isn’t a coincidence. Us being happy and fulfilled doesn’t benefit companies but it benefits us. I have been longing to disconnect. Unplug from the world more and more. I crave a lesser life but by lesser I mean more. More minimal, less looking at screens and more looking down a coastal path or some other beautiful thing. I think the future is almost forced upon us these days. We are made to look ahead but truthfully, I just want to live more in the now. Before it is gone. Before it becomes the past.